The Little Things

 My weekend in a nutshell..or a Photo Album

I tried to take a normal picture......

But I gave up!

I really am his favorite. We are BEST FRIENDS

He has some fabulous lips.
They run in the family ;) 

Love them.

He was dying to try it on.

Then we moved on to bigger and better things.

He LOVES to bake goodies with me!

MAX QUOTE "Shakey Butt shakey butt!"

They gave up on forming popcorn balls.

He just decided to eat. 

And spank his bum.

Yummy lime popcorn!

Our DJ Hyro for the night!

I don't need people my own age to please me.

This weekend I played with my cousins.

Every day.

Friday night we made candied popcorn.

We laughed until our bellies hurt.

I helped them design and build a fort.

And we ended by watching the magical Princess Bride.

These boys delight me.

Saturday morning I have early work from 8-2.

As I pulled in the driveway coming home, Max ran up to the car, opened the door and told me to get out. He huged me and smiled. Ammon who was in the street riding his bike, with friends,  jumped off and ran to me. They said how happy they were that I was home.

The day went on and was normal until their parents left to go on a date. I was just hanging out with them until I went out with some friends.

Unfortunately I never got anything planned. DARN.

The boys were going to go to their friends' down the street (whom they LOVE), when I left.

And I told them If i didn't leave that they could still go.

They didn't even want to go.

All three of them wanted to spend time with me.

I was shocked.

We took pictures..as you can tell.

We bought delicious cupcakes.

We played marbles.

We made bracelets

And watched Ninja Turtles.

We had the night of our lives.

I just know I will miss them terribly when I move up onto campus.
I have grown so close to them
At times I want to strangle them
And then I just want to snuggle and kiss them.

They are my life right now.
I am so happy.

I am just scared for major Tackle night tonight..WISH ME LUCK!

Is it too much to ask?

All I want is a solid group of friends. Is that too much too ask for?

Or maybe I am just supposed to be with the family at this time.

The way I live now is completely different than before.

I used to be out of the house whenever I had the chance.

Now I don't even flinch at the opportunity of being able to party.

It is great when I come home to little crazy boys.

Who are ecstatic to see me when I get off work.

To a warm friendly environment.

I do not like to play poker; so I won't.

I do not like to watch garbage movies; so I don't.

And I do not want to be out until 3 in the morning having, what someone people call, "fun".

I can't.

So.

I am going to wait for school to find some real wholesome kids.

This way, I get to come home and play with the boys.

And listen to this song on replay:

(Sorry I don't know how to upload the clear, recorded MP3..but he is amazing..a local Idaho kid)

I guess that is all for now..

I have a ton on my mind but that will come soon.

Today, I know that God is Great

Today I am grateful

for the simple life principles I've been taught by my parents, friends, teachers and leaders

treating others kindly

telling the truth

pursuing my dreams

for being taught to know right from wrong 

for a job.

No it is not a receptionist at a salon.

No it is not working at the Dry Cleaning, like I'd hoped.

Nor is it Gator Jacks or Kiwi Loco.

But I am employed. 

I get to choose my hours and can be super flexible.

I get to wear casual clothes.

I get to work with my best friend.

I get to have friendly advisors.

I get to work at a Call Center.

for having a beautiful family to live with 

Who give me so much.

Who is helping me prepare for school.

Whom I can trust and go to at any time.

for the friends I have met

Who keep my spirits up.

Who throw great bonfires.

Who jump off bridges into freezing rivers.

Who eat taco bell at 2 in the morning.

Who climb trains and silos.

Who keep me safe..from scary movies.

for my trials

That are making me so much stronger.

for all my angels and supporters

You know who you are.

Today I am grateful 

to be here

to be alive

to be healthy

to be able to smile and mean it

I am grateful for the contentment I feel

The Lord listens.

He hears.

He gives.

He Loves.

I am so grateful.

So far in The 'Burg

Been here two weeks now.

Been on one date with a Pre-Mi. It was fine. Free shaved ice. I was happy.

Been on the search for a job. Crossing my fingers, I find one soon.

Been acting as cinderella. Cleaning is what I do.

Been an awesome nanny.

Been to Draper, Sandy, Salt Lake, and Jordan for a day.

Been to Ikea.

Been to Fat Cats Arcade.

Been to Rigby Lake.

Been to the Dollar theatre.

Been to G's Dairy.

Been to an amazing condo in Driggs, Idaho.

Been to a fabulous fire work show.

Been driving the suburban.

Been missing the Subaru.

Been missing my family.

Been missing my friends.

Been moving on. From tons.

Been having a great time.

Yeah it has been different. I have loved every minute of it. I have learned tons and it's only been three weeks. I am excited to get to know this little town and get to know the people in my new ward and all those that I meet. I have had my ups and downs..but the Lord is here..walking with me every step of the way. It's weird to think that I will be singing up for classes and housing soon..and moving on my own officially in January. But, I feel it is the right thing and I know I can handle it. Did I mention that I love living here? Because I do. Although I have found that I have gotten more bruises (like the big nasty purple and blue ones) since I have moved here, than in my whole life. I swear. These little boys are ferocious. But they have the sweetest spirits.

My date last night was incredible. A good first impression of the men in this town. They took us to a  meeting place my Dates Uncle owned, and it was fantastic. We had competitions playing foos ball, ping pong, air hockey, and pool. Down stairs in the building were a bunch of empty rooms, but secretly in the back there was a cool movie theatre with couches. Way too cool. In january, when they start school, they plan to make it into a dance club. Legit. We watched a sweet movie in the theatre and that completed the great night.

Tonight we plan to go ballroom and latin dancing. Sketchy, I know, but it should be very fun.

Anyways..I guess that is all for now. Life is wonderful, no matter what.

Moving On

I graduated.

I went to Arizona with my best friend.

I moved to Rexburg.

"I can't believe you're going to live with us!!"

Hyrum tells me this every day, with a huge smile on his face.

He is almost 8 and one cute kid. One young Gent.

I love having Hyrum, Ammon who is almost 6, 

And Max who is 3; In my life

They say the cutest things.

They are 3 Crazy,

Loud,

Obnoxious,

Kind,

Little Lovers.

My Aunt and Uncle have taught them well.

They are so patient, 

so sincere yet stern. 

They are great teachers.

I am grateful to have them as a wonderful base to the next chapter in my life.

I went to church.

I met new faces.

I drove around learning the streets.

I went job hunting.

I turned in my first resume. 

I am now waiting.

The weather is beautiful here.

I am soaking it up.

Praying winter comes late.

I miss my family.

I miss my friends.

But I feel so right where I am now.

New air.

New people.

New experiences.

I am excited.

Here I go.

Way Too Fast

My highshoool career is coming to an end.

3 real school days left.

The unreal feeling on my back that keeps the clock turning is driving me insane. I feel that just yesterday I was at my brothers graduation.

And turn back one more time and I was in elementry school, chasing boys.

Literally; with tennis balls.

I have one final; math. Which I am not looking forward to, but who is?

Then I am done. Class of 2012 is out of that dungeon.

Not going back.

Grad parties, staying up late, celebration time.

Then a hop, skip and a jump; plop on a plane to spend my second to last week with my best friend, of 17 years.

In the yummy heat of Arizona.

Yay.

Then June 18th.

For now my emotions are indifferent.

Stoked to get out of the Tri. Live elsewhere, make new memories. Move on, meet people, learn.

But I am nervous.

Stressed to go, yet so relieved.

Super happy, but so very sad.

Sad to leave the ones who've helped shape me.

Make me.

If there is one thing I've learned in high school, it's friends really do make the biggest impact on you. I have seen myself change around different people. I know where I am supposed to be.

Side by Sarah Rex.

That woman has inspired me to do great things.

From eating some exotic dish she made, to helping me come closer to my Heavenly Father.

I can honestly say we are THE BEST OF FRIENDS.

We even won it for our senior class-- *proof in our year book*

Through thick and thin, we've seen one another at our worst.

Our best.

Moving to Rexburg may set us far apart. But we are truly inseperable at heart.

LAUGHING, CRYING, DANCING

We do it all. I will miss her so much, but what we've been through has changed me for the better there is no ways those memoires can be lost. No matter the distance, our friendship is there to hold eachother up.

She reads my mind.

I finish her sentences.

We're best friends.

Two bodies, one soul.

I guess that is that, until the real business starts to happen.

Cap and Gown in hand, im ready to go.

Life is Tricky

It has been a little
while in my blogging history. Every time I have sat down to write, I could not
gather all my thoughts and just felt like I was whining. But lately I have been
learning a few lessons. Mainly that if I put all my Faith in the Lord Jesus Christ,
and trust in him, all things will work out for the best. Along with a positive
attitude and the willingness to change for the best.

Life has thrown at me
a few huge rocks lately and I found myself falling down. And not just falling,
but crashing. Feeling sorry for myself and making the wrong decisions. And then
I talked to a few inspiring people and they helped me change my perspective. My
Uncle, a great man, told me a story of two brothers:


A few years ago, a news reporter was intrigued by two

brothers, who had completely opposite life's. One brother was a

multi-millionaire, happily married, active in his church and community. The

other?Well, he was a drunk, divorced,

abusive to his kids, and very unhappy.

The reporter wanted to better understand why they ended up the way they

had.

The
newspaper first reported about the brother with the

negative effects of life.When asked,

'why he was a drunk, abusive, and led such a poor life', he responded with this

first sentence: "You see...I didn't have a choice. My father was a drunk,

and abused me as a child, and I never knew anything else. I really didn't have

a choice".

A
day or two latter, the reporter published the second

portion of the story.This time in

regards to the successful, happy, wealthy, and leader of his community. When
asked,

'why he was able to be a leader in his community, happily married, and

financially wealthy', he responded with this as his first sentence:"You
see...I didn't have a choice. My

father was a drunk, and abused me as a child. I really didn't have a
choice".

The difference
between these two brothers? Attitude. The first brother, following after the
image of his father, gained little in life, cursing the wind for no reason and
feeling sorry for himself because of course he would end up just like his
father. The second brother however knew what he wanted. He wasn't about to let
his past get the best of him. He made it to the top of the chain simply because
he knew he could. The choice for these brothers was simple. Were they going to
follow after their father, or make a difference in the world and change for the
best.

I have found that
plastering a smile on my face can be difficult, yet it is the best thing to do.
I want to achieve the goals that I have made. I am not willing to take the
chance of letting anyone ruin my abilities to what I can do. With these
challenges in my life, I have been finding myself over use the word
"why", yet I have learned that there is never really a clear answer
as to "why" in this case. I have been thinking a lot about my future.
Often catching myself sulking for what I don't have or what others have more
than me, I've realized that I am comparing my worst to their best. Everyone has
trials the size of elephants. At different parts of life yes, but we also need
to understand that we don't know what others are going through and focus on
serving no matter that cause, and taking care of ourselves.

The power of choice
is incredible.There are critical

decisions in life....but perhaps one of the most important, is what are you

going to become, given your personal circumstances in your life and family.

I believe this with
all my heart. I decided that "I don't have a choice" and that I am
going to have the best life that I can. I will have a beautiful family and
finish my education well, no matter what my background is. Even when life seems
to be crummy. Look up with a smile, for the Lord has much in plan for each and
every one of us. He is GOOD.

Cycle #1 I am happy though

In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are. And in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn't be the person we are. So just live. Make mistakes. Have wonderful memories. But never ever second guess who you are, where you've been, and most importantly, where it is you're going.

Honestly this past week I have been fowl fowl FOWL. Jumping at everyone's throats and breaking everything. I have yet to come up with a reason. But I have just not been normal. Maybe it's the fact that I graduate in 3 and a half months, or maybe its that fact of learning to avoid boys in high school. That lesson however I have obviously not learned. Yet, I do not regret anything. It is called learning. All these experiences, teaching me what to avoid and what to cling to. The Lord has a plan for me. Whether I am sticking to that plan now or straying, I am not positive. But what is happening is going in a direction that I know to be right. I GUESS something I realized THIS WEEK, is that after a mighty relationship, of any kind, that is broken; Being "Just friends" is probably the most difficult part, and is very restricting. Meaning, it's almost not possible. Just hear me out. Ok, how many times have you stayed friends or tried to be friends after being with someone. Seriously, it's going to be hard enough breaking it off, but then seeing them? Is there a channel in the brain that deletes every memory with that person? So when there is contact the thought in my head is "Oh this isn't awkward at ALL! I am just SO happy that we can still be FRIENDS. And not think about our super fabulous past at all THAT HAD TO BE BROKEN. I just have to SMILE!" I do smile a lot. I also pretend a lot. And I know for an absolute fact that no one's brain works like that. There may be some lucky people out there that just find a way to never think about it. But when affection is involved, "Just Friends" is basically the monster who pushed Jack down the hill which Jill then came tumbling after. The monster saying things can still be the same. The lying monster. Because the answer is No. That relationship. Whatever it was that we have...had, Has ruined some things. I wish for being friends to be easier. But at this point I am thinking the easier option is deleting that person out of my life. For a time. Because this whole friendship thing, won't work. Can't. Will never be the same.

But, I AM grateful for a few things.

*I am going to college. Winter/Spring Track at BYU-Idaho. I am looking forward so very much. There is a possibility that I will be going down to Rexburg for the summer and fall as well to work. Just so I can change things up. I will be 18 and want to move. My aunt and uncle live there and that is where I'd like to be.
*Learning guitar is very calming. I love the feel and I love to sing. I have found myself singing way more than before and this gives me something more to do with my life.
*Avery will be home in 5 months :) Yes that deserves a smiley face.
*SARAH REX is the greatest inspiration/best friend/long-distant Cousin in the WORLD.
*I really do enjoy my speech class. Mr. Porter, my favorite teacher/my dads great friend, is wonderful. The class is definitely building my confidence and I am glad that it is him. We actually compose a speech mostly every week, but work on them at home. So the rest of the days we do improve, and they are the most fun.
*My dad is making indian food for dinner, so my house smells like heaven. I am a lucky girl.

Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone completely wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a jerk what you think. Laugh til your stomach hurts. LIve LIFE. Regret nothing.

Yes, I am tall. No, I do not play Basketball

Tall Girls Problems. AKA: Story of my Life

#16. When you see people you haven't seen in a while and their like "stop growing".

#17. Having to slow down when walking with your friends because one of your strides is three of theirs.

#21. You can't stand under an umbrella with your friends.

#62. Unable to cross your legs when sitting under a desk.

#63. You can't dry your clothes because they'll shorten.

#84. No I am not playing footsy with you, my feet don't fit under the table.

#90. When meeting someone: "Wow you're so tall".."Really? I had no idea. Thanks for letting me know"

#107. Being asked to fetch things from high shelves that others can't reach.

#120. Friend says, "These pants are way too long for me, I know they'll fit you." Nope, not even close.

#124. When "Long" sized jeans still don't cut it.

#132. When you hug a guy taller than you and never want to let go. It's a sweet rare occasion.

#139. The impossiblity of finding a cute one peice swimsuit that fits.

#140. Automatically falling in Love with every guy that is taller than you.

#163. Being tall enough to see over dressing room stalls.

However, I have promised my self. I will not tie the knot with a man shorter than me. In fact I am setting standards high. He will be taller-enough-than-me so I can rock my heels. Boom. That is that. I don't feel like telling you anything important tonight.

In summer, the song sings itself.

Summer my Love, comes so soon. 19 weeks Soon. Sunshine like a blanket it covers me. Warm rain falling on my face as I dance on the side walk. Perfect beach wavey hair sweetly tangled in that absolutely attractive way. Spontaneous adventures with the greatest friends. Floating down the Yak, burning like toast. Little children selling lemonade that tastes like water. Shorts, sunglasses, swimsuit, tanning oil, and out the door.

I can't wait.

That magical moment when you see a man of interest. And you find out he is your brothers friend. Connections, they are love. Staying up late in the warm air. Watching the stars with their beautiful Mother Moon giving us just enough light to see each others faces. Laying in the fresh cut grass reminiscing the best memories and laughing so loud the dogs bark.

Its summer love just a short distance between us, a short 128 days distance.

Arizona is calling my name. The people, the palm trees, the perfect bliss.

Living the life with the best friend under the bright sun.

We will fry an egg. On the side walk.

No Worries. All Happies. Hippies.

Groovin

Oh Summer how I can't wait. Freedom. Pouring down pleasurable happiness.

Overalls and driving with ALL the windows down. Car washes.

Pineapple. Watermelon. Kiwi. Against my lips.

Juice dripping down my arms.

"If a June night could talk, it would probably boast it invented Romance"

Staying up all night talking to the beautiful person you care so about.

Smiling.

Always smiling.

He will fall in love with Her smile.

She is calling my name, Summer that is.

The time of wrestless days that never end. For the best. The days when everything goes perfect and you've only accomplished jumping in the pool and soaking the Suns rays.

Vacation spots. Deep Thoughts

Day is bright. Party at night.

No sleeping. Pool leaping..

Hot guys.

Butterflies.

I can't wait for that Summer Time!

Real Cute

Monday, I went to the Doctor, yes. Again. And found out that I have not only extreme Anemia, but a Border-Line Diabetes, meaning if I don't change my eating habits; I will become diabetic. In my next future years. I do tend to eat a lot of carbs, yet that is probably what keeps me "plump", for how tall I am. I need to start eating more protein..meat. Well..I need to start eating as a start. Because when I do eat, its like a bird. I feel like my world is crashing, and this is just an 1/8 of what seems to be all my problems. Am I complaining? No..I can't. That is what I can write in my pitty journal, and push behind me. So you might want to read something interesting

Ladies you ever encounter those boys who "Subtly" hit on you. Cute? Not so much. A few days ago we were working on our group project and randomly this conversation came about:

Guy 1 "So your mom works at that school?..I don't think I ever saw her..or even heard of her"

Me "Yes ma'am"

Guy 2 "Oooh yeah I never heard of her either..but I bet she is really hot..."

Um can I tell you, things got a bit awkward. Real fast. This is just a casual scene of my 'Guys-subtly-hitting-on-me-daily' moments. So I just brushed it off, but felt, flattered?..maybe just strange.

Those are the situations I try to stay away from. I just always find myself with boys. Wether I like it or not. And even if their just the figmant of my imagination. Past ones, Future ones, Boys tend to be my thing.I love my best friends Tanner and Connor K. They are my favorite boys, besides my brothers of course. And they help so much. They are not afraid to be themselves. And that is what I really love in a guy. It shows me they are brave. And they are so creative. I believe that they are JUST my friends. And I hope they feel that way too, however I love this clip and am not positive ha.I am a teen age girl. I love reminicing. Thinking about my first kisses. Thinking about what could have been. And remembering all my favorite moments with Boys. But I also love fantisizing about the future. Who will HE be?

Here; He will be This:

Just Kidding...(well sorta) Here: