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1. Smiling is addicting. You know like when you get mad but then someone laughs or smiles at you, you can still be a bit angry but you still smile. Maybe its not everyone. But it happens to me.

2. I love my turbo. Except, when i am in a 30 mph zone and i look down and realize i am going 50. Yeah whoops. I love it.
3. I was talking to a friend telling him about my classes and realized something. Government is my hardest class. Government. Maybe its because i cant pay attention. Or maybe its because we watch the news and talk the whole time, then she throws us a curve ball of a test. Yikes. Yeah, government, which i should probably learn about because i am so naive and uninterested in worldly business. But i shold probably try, it would be sad if that one semester class brought me way down.
4. UMM..so i have started to ignore it, but it can still be pain, especially when i've known the person forever, but when they walk up and say "Wow, you know Harmony, you're SO tall." I mean, come on, what do i say? "NO WAYY!!??!" I have said it time and time again. I love my height. But when people do that or whisper when they walk by its like im an alien. But. Then i wore heels one time. And sarah changed my outlook. I think they arent thinking im from outerspace. They just cant get their eyes off me because i am a model. Right? What can i say? So pretty much yeah. Guys are jealous. And that is that. I love seeing so far off the ground. Always a better advantage. Eh?
5. HC. Home. Coming. Hoooo-rah. I am glad Amber is in my group. I WILL have fun.
6. Pretty much i love my job. s. Yes jobs. I love being a nanny. I now have, not only, every other week, but also every thursday night, and i will probably be taking on every wednesday night. I love children. With all my heart, i cant wait to be a mother. Just holding a small child in my arms. The joy it brings. I love the way they smile and laugh over silly business. I love how messy they get. Then giving them bubble baths. Their suprise on their face when they experinece something new, which they love. When a song comes on and they move their body, or start "singing" or "talking" along. Its just so cute. Love. One of my greatest desires is to be a mother, and to have an eternal family.I also got a job at Monkey Dooz, thanks to the best friend in the world, which i will do on saturdays. Because i love to do hair, and i love children, this will be lovely. Minus the bratts. But i love it.
7. Fall. My even more favorite. Crisp leaves. Hot chocolate. Candles. Warm homes. Snuggling and coziness. Fires. Delicious home made meals.
8. If you were to ask me at this point in time what music i like, you'd get an answer. But i think you should just ask the question what music DON'T i like. When i put my i tunes on shuffle i just listen to all of it. A country song will come up. Then a disney song. Then maybe edward sharpe, or the Red hot Chilis. Then you'll hear some coldplay and snow patrol. And i cant forget my back street, nysinc, jesse mccartney, and spice girls. And good ol Bob and Jimmi. And my techno Its love. And of course i hvae my latest pop songs that i still love. So to what you should ask. I don't like screamo. That is that.
9. Ive got an addiction. Now addictions are usually bad. But i feel like mine really isn't. Apparently it is because my mom told me to quit. Its Hot Chocolate. I love it. Out of all Hot Beverages. ITS MY FAVORITE. Specially with flavoring, like hazelnut, and irish cream. And mini marshmallows. And whoooop cream. Its love yes. Today i made cinnimon and spice..mmm

I have 9 today. That is that.

I wrote a blog, but didnt post it. I didn't because it went against my 'smiling through and through'. All i wrote was complainig and ranting. Casual. I guess i just get upset easily and don't understand a lot of people. But yeah. It was just a good cool off for my anger.

Also i had a mag weekend to blow off steam. I actually got to hang out with Sarah, Connor, and Tanner. Best Saturday ever. I have my twins this week. And i start my other family of 4 girls for every wednesday, and my thursday night. I am so busy. I love it.

umm...yeah..im gone

My Unusual Scattered Rants

Tis Homecoming Season, again. And i am realizing that everyone is getting asked. Everyone except me. Casual. Why, i must ask? Maybe I am too forward. Maybe I am to offering. Maybe I am to enthusiastic. Or maybe I am just a freak. But. No matter the cause I dont get asked. Then i realized its my heigth. Well, dang, i must be intimidating. Oh and there is that other excuse that everyone and THEIR DOG uses. They say "Oh, your just too beautiful". Ha. Right. "And the guys are sooOoOooooOOO nervous". Right. Ok. That is absolutely the worst excuse ever. All the prettiest girls DO get asked. Just saying. I just don't get it. But you know, i am so over it already. I know there is a reason and i am fine by it. College is in less than a year now and a stupid dance should be the least of my worries. Anyways, i take the ACT that morning, so i would not want to be rushed into getting ready. That is that i suppose. I will just have my own dance party :) for real. Mine are the best anyway.

Anyways. This senior year should be swell. Life is fun. School life yes. I am glad to be back. No I am not at college. But I can tell this will be, pretty much, a good year. A fantastic senior year. I have a job. I have nice people. Friends. Fabulous classes and teachers. Minus the fact that i have no friends in my lunch, I never see sarah, and i have to drive stick to nanny. Yeah driving stick is NOT the greatest. I stall everyday and it is just nerve racking and i never know whether i will do well or not. But i suppose with a good attitude i will manage and, hopefully, get better. I guess its a good experience. And my girls, well they are crazy 9 year old twins. It's fun but they can definetly be a challenge. I take them to dance and cheer so that is fun, so pretty much its like im mom. Yay.

Weird Thought of My week: So when I drive and I am thinking. My thoughts are usually crazy and abnormal. But today I was thinking on a thought. And it was less crazy and more of an epiphany. So I was sneezing a bunch of times and realized how much I love it. Like I feel like romantic. And I love it like I love to kiss. Yes. Ha.

Besides how we all know life is insane and we have our major troubles. I have been swell. "Just keep swimming" NO MATTER WHAT. It's really hard when it may come to losing friends or just choosing differently, but we gotta do what we gotta do. The Lord has a plan for us and whatever that plan is we may not know. But following Him, and doing what we know is right will keep us straight on the path and all will be well over all.

I am extremely excited for fall. I love the nip in the air, candles smelling the house up with christmas, snuggling, bon fires, sweaters, boots, DELICIOUS FOOD, Hot Cocoa, and so much more. Tis the Season for sure for sure FOR SURE.

Easier Said than Done

My dad asked me why I write a blog. I told him I don't really know. Maybe just as a journal. But I have a separate for that. So maybe just a public journal. Oh wait. That is a blog. So I guess I jut put stuff that i want people to know and to think about. I hope it helps you, or gives you is not a waste when you read it, or something like that.

So, i have had a lot of thought. like What do girls want? We want to be loved. To be noticed. We hate being the man in the relationship and want the guy to make the first move. Unfortunatly some guys tend to be scared. So we end up starting it. Flirting. But then they may get a confused. Because they would think "oh she flirts with EVERYONE". My goodness. High school boys are silly. So all i can say is Gents, if you dare to call your self that, Guys, I sure hope you will always treat your ladies with respect. We deserve nothing less. A quality I look for in a guy is defiantly that he will treat me with the upmost value. I actually have quite the list of what I expect in my man. I realized lately I have not so much been following what I want. Which is clearly not a smart decision. Ladies, when you set the expectations of what you want in a guy. Never turn back or try to bend the expectation. Unless it is for good reason, because we all know the story of when the guy searched far and wide for miss right. And when he found her, guess what happened. She was looking for Mr right and HE was not HIM. We will never find the perfect one. But dang, we can get pretty darn close. I have seen it. And I want it. However, if we want the lasting relationship we cannot turn our nose up at everything. Something I need to work on. So what do I want? I will not marry shorter. Why?..because it's awkward. Kissing would not be ideal. I guess when your in love they say everything is different. Well I don't care. He's got to have a few inches on me. He MUST have a nice smile. That is my favorite. I love smiles. And his will be not much less than perfect. I expect cleanliness. No Santa beard. But scruff is fine if he wants. But a clean chin is definitely wonderful. Do I sound high maintenance or what? Ha. Okay his personality must be. Well willing. I guess I don't what marry so I will not date a guy who won't have fun. I want to have fun. To go on adventures. Road trips. Picnics at the park. Dancing. Bowling. Bike rides. Making food together. And just doing fun activities rather than sitting at home. He must have a sense of humor. And no not like Monty Python. Ew. He needs to make me laugh. Usually isn't too hard but I want to be able to laugh and joke for hours like best friends. Another point. I want him to be my best friend. I would love for him to be an RM and a strong believer of Jesus Christ and strong in the gospel. I think that reason mostly not just because I want him to be. But because I want him to be able to help me and so we can have our kids grow up that way with good standards. And to be in the church. I would like him to have a passion. A passion that is not boyish. I would love for that passion to be as much as a love for music, children, building things, or just something like that. Maybe camping. Or hiking? Those are two wonderful activities. I am also looking for an emotionally healthy guy, who is kind and not just to me, but to everyone around him. Educated and Patient are very high on the list. I would like determination in his schooling and i am the worst with patience. It is my goal to work on. I supose i could go on about things i want, but these are just a few that i'd really apreciate. Making a list such as this will put us on the right track and that way we can know what we are searching for in someone, and if there is a trait or quality the person does not fill, i think there are many more dates possible. So not only do i have a 'what i want' list, but also a 'what i don't want'. This, my friends, is key. If you put no restricstions then there is no limit, so you could just be kidding yourself, and making excuses for why they would be right. For example, You find someone who is adorable and kind, and just everything you think. But they slack off at work, arent tidy, and tends to be arrogant. And you say "Oh its okay, they will get better, and its just nothing. It doesnt matter". Are you joking yourself? If something is not right. Quit. Its only going to be harder the longer you wait. So what do i not want? Cynical. Pessimistic. Who wants to be with a negative nancy all the time? Not me. I will not stand for someone who is sloppy, undependable, a tv junkie, flirts with others, nor extremely shy. Again, these are definetly not all, but i do have my standards up high. No, i, won't find mr. perfect, especially the first time round, but i can get close. We can all get close. We can also learn to deal with the silly differences between one another. So i am a senior in high school and thinking about this. Probably because i can't wait. Though i should. Probably because i know so many people who have just gotten married or are engaged. And its crazy. I will be in college in a year and working towards my future of that, but i want it to be perfect. I guess that is that. I should probably stop here.

Aside from that i read a scripture saying, "Wickedness never was happiness". Wow. Those words could never be more true. I think we have all learned this from experience as well. I know I have. And I have learned that repentance and forgiveness are amazing. We all do silly things we regret. And turning to the Lord truly is the best way to handle it. Do I always say this? Maybe because I am the one frequently making those mistakes. Maybe not ideal but the Lord sent us here for these trials. He would never give us anything that we couldn't handle. That is why change, for the best is always good as well. For the best.