well..i can't believe it..

Today was strange.

Probably because of Every 15 Minutes .

Just as well, the wind probably added to it. It really makes me mad.

But what was strange was after math i was walking back down the hall and there was this girl. I didn't know her and I didnt think anything of it, but she was balling her eyes out. I guess i kinda stared at her, but wouldn't you? I didn't mean to and then she caught my glimpse and kinda came over to me and started telling me all of these aches in her life. She was saying how her boyfriend's ex is pregnant, and now she can't go to prom and her friend ditched her and just kept going on. I was like, oh man, what is happening. Is this real? It was so hard because I had no idea who she was. I just said prayer that something would happen so i wouldnt sound stupid or be rude to her. So i just stood there for a minute and listened. I didnt want to say anything that would not be right, like the cliche "oh everything is going to be alright", because i mean i don't even know anything else much about her. SO..i asked her who some others she knew were, and told her that i was willing to listen but i really had to go. I gave her my number and told her she could call me if she wanted any help because at the moment i was just flustered. Was that wise??..I dont know HER. I guess i have a new friend? :) i just hope i made the right choice, although right now i am really just not knowing what to think. I guess it was a blessing to her and the Lord knew i could handle it. Just wheI thought that i had a bunch craziness in my life, i ran into this girl, and now I can think less of myself. I say it was a great opportunity, but i just pray for the girl, and hope things can go well.

Also i hoped to have another couple in our prom group..who didnt have a group and i am just getting to know the girl..but i guess that 4 couples is too many. Dang. Not my choice either. Oh well. I like how its all Sophomore boys, with Junior girl dates. Yeah. Prom is on SATURDAY, two days. I think i am considering it as more of a tolo. Ha, it will be nice.

I think that psychology was fun today. Sarah made me a rebel. There was a sub, so i moved my desk and we listened to MUSIC!..and i ate my breakfast. I thought for sure we would get socked in the face..but actually it was totally FINE. looove when subs are in town.

Hey shy boi: We've still got to dance. I am no senior, but i am white. We will.

HOME BOI

Patience is a Virtue. Wow. Yes. And I am guilty of being extremely quite the contraire. Maybe because I just don't even try because I would rather be upset and have everyone know. But I have definatly realized that blowing up at someone is so not the answer. Maybe I am just BI-POLAR!!! Yeah. Because one second I will be happi and then someone will just kick my stand and I will be a monster. Or maybe I just over react. Whatever it it, needs to come to an end. Or at least be lessened. Probably my weakest with this is dealing with Gabby. She is my sister and honestly I can really treat her like crap a lot of times. I don't even take to notice when I am, but then once I look back on what I have done I think of my self as a down right selfish, careless, hypocrite. So I have decided that I need to start putting others before myself for the reason of understanding them better. And help them. So that I am not only thinking about my oh so sad life. Because its not. I need to take heed of all the other helpless people in the world who are having the worst of times. I need to REACH A HAND. Okay I am not trying to sound like a preacher. I am going to try to be more giving because from I have been taught and learned in the past, giving much will lead to getting, weather from the Lord in blessings or material. And with Him by our side we can do all. Through all of our callings we are given. Because, again, He will not give us something to take on that we are unable of. He knows our capabilities and disabilities and is going to guide and help us through all the way. So, I am working harder on being patient and more loving and giving to others.

I answered Talmage. Wow Best experience of MY LIFE. Sarah and I went to Albertsons and bought baby wipes and baby food..and T.P. and a can of corn. And we told Him that I would answer him today. So he went to do prom prep and we went over to do his room. I must say, that kid CRACKS ME UP. First the back gate was just open and he made an arrow pointing to his room made out of badmitten rackets. And his window was partway open with chairs stacked up so we could "sneak in". Then on the table was a sign that said "for sarah and harmony" and it pointed to Root Beer and the confetti eggs he made that he told us about. I couldn't stop laughing. We totally tore UP his room with amazing T.P.-ing and awesome signs with babyness and just amazing. So that was an adventure. Then when we got out we almost got blown over by the wind, you know how it is up by Badger Mountain. And we found a lost garbage can in the middle of the street that belongs way far down. So we loaded it in the van and almost died from the wind, and secretly returned it to his home. Oh what a day.

Cody Simpson: T minus 22 days. His new song On My Mind is FABULICIOUS. He is by FAR, better than JB. His voice that is. And just everything. He is just growing up so much and he new song sounds kind of like David Archuleta. Remember him? Yeah he is good. Just Like Aaron Carter...and Jesse McCartney and of course Billy Gilman. Boy, do I love young boy singers or what. They have all just got my heart on a High Speed Chase. THAT is for certain.

17 is probably not a memorable age. Except I can watch R movies. And play violent video games. YEESSSS. Both of which I have been waiting for FOREVER. Actually no. It is so not memorable that I will probably just chill. I like going to parties but I am not much of a fan of actually planning and having my own. So last year was nice because with a surprise party you don't have to plan it but you still have one. It was great. I guess I will see what Sarah and I can spontaneously muster up.

So my grandparents came this Easter weekend. I love when they come because they are so loving and giving, well except that my grandma is still stuck back in the 1400's and needs to not judge how I dress and how I look. My grandpa really is one of my favorite people and one of whom I look up to so much. We have great deep discussions of the gospel and boys, and hockey. Yeah he gives me awesome advice of guys. And that I should stay away unless they are tall, nice, and drive a hot red car. But he also tells me to be careful because he knows how many guys are chasing me. And it is okay to date some of them, but as long as I end up with a hot red car. He tells me to be grateful for my heitgh, wich i LOVE, and for my legs, which are helpful for out running the men. And so I also love being with him when we go to the mall. I love all the looks and comments I get from people. Well, actually most of the time its just the repetitive people that make me angry with telling me how short they feel. But the complements I get about how I can work it, I love.

Boys. Word. That is all.

boredom strikes

i attempted to answer Talmage. yes. attempted. maybe i will just be really lame and tell him yes. his MAJOR pet peeve. or maybe i will just say no. HA. yeah, that would solve much. because i have a dress problem. indeed. i actually have like 5 to choose from. BUT few are ready, and the original does not match. i mean unless he wants to wear a brown...or PINK tux. the dress is pink and brown..it just would not subdue. so. that is my mid life dilema at the momento. but actually, Prom. With the babies. i think this night will be a fun success.

so cody simpson concert is in..27 days. and my birthday is even sooner. weird? 17. WOO. THAT is THE age.

my dad asked me when i will grow out of my country music stage. except for t swizz. she is acceptable. and i am heart broken that he wants me to take off all of the songs that say beer. or soemthing like that. i made the exception of all the ones that say WHISKEY. yeah. actually i will try to hold off and not delete any. country is some of my love. it's so expresive and just. AH-mazing. its how i do.



yesterday i was going to babysit my favorite girls. but then i ended up not needing to, though i still went over to chill with the little ladies. i do say, i had a BLAST. thats some true happiness righht there. being a child again.

when will this flippin beautiful weather set in place is what I want to know. stupid ground hog was a liar.

canucks won and played well..then lost..but they took a commanding 3-0 series lead. YEAH.

so i am very happi. and happi people i am attrackted to. so if you are happi, then we are a good match. i looove so many people and i am grateful for all of their good works and charity towards me. i wish to be more charitable. actually i am really trying to be more humble. i know someone. she is the most humble lady i have ever met, and i honor and love her dearly. she is the greatest example to me. she is so kind and truthful and really just a great person to be around. i'll count her as one of my role models. i have known her for so long now and i have never thought less of her ever. she must be the prize winner for blessings these days. i hope to be like her. that is a goal.

Yo..that means Yes

I have learned a lot in the past couple weeks and all of which have helped me with many decisions.. Last weekend I spent in Rexburg with family and visiting BYU-I. Awesome Experience. Great School. I also visited the brand new built this year, high school. Madison High. And with the experience of staying with extended family and seeing all the new and talkeing about the future, we talked about the fact that "Where ever you go; There you are". Meaning we may not be able to choose the enviroment we live in now, or the people whom we are surrounded by, yet we can choose how to live our lives, and who we want to associate with to live life to the fullest. Yet, if we think that by running away from problems we face will make everything better, we just might find out that is definatly not the solution. There are those exceptions such as a bad job, or something that really can not be fixed,but most of the time there are many ways to figure out how to fix the problem. Running away with out mending what might be building up inside is just not the answer, so i want to be sure and have that taken care of before moving along. And if i choose to go in a different direction, I am not thinking that the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side. It's not. But, with this choice of advancement to a new place can be a chance for personal growth and finding out new things of myself. Also, this is a chance for new parts to shine.ha

I also was retold that the trials we face were put on us because the Lord knows we are strong enough to over come them. So in other words, we have already punched them in the face and we just need to realize that we WILL get through them. We are strong. And with that, our minds our STRONG. They are quite literally the most powerful drug there is. We have the ability to do almost whatever we believe. We all know it as, Placebo Effect. I mean how are we even to know that any real pills work? There is that general idea because of certain symptoms they clear, but I know in many cases, it is just the mind healing the body. I love that. And this has been proven all too much through out my life. And if you know at all about Mark Twain who was born on the day Halleys Commet showed, he believed and had the goal to live to see it again, and through all the pain and struggle he lived through, he believed and waited to see her, and the next time she showed, was the day he passed. Our minds are wonderful. We CAN do whatever we set our hearts to.

Okay, so over all I can say my Spring break was pretty nice. It was spent well with many events although I didnt see all those whom I wished. Besides Rexburg, I did get to go skiing with my mom on a most beautiful day up at Bluewood. I had never been there before and was shocked at how small it was when I arrived, but the slopes we great and there was so much powder that day, and not too mention awesome snow, AND sunshine! It really was a great day. And with the oh so beautiful weather i was able to be outside so much.

I love my friends. So then I think that is one of the only cons with the decision on my soldiers. Where would I be with out them right now? I always feel like they don't care about me, so why should I try to make plans and hang with them? But they are my venting machines and some of the greatest people ever. How can I let go of them? Ga. But there are so many pros to the other side. I just have to remember that the Lord knows all and he will help me choose best.

I just. Don't. Know. Probably my answer right now to anything you will ask me.

Richland Prom is soon. ? I KNOW who I am going with? Weird?

That is that.

I wish there was more.

...I can speak Frenglish..

Today while walking in the hall I saw my Monsier Koller. I always feel so awkward and want to avoid him, yet so onliged to at least say hello. But then I alwys end up freaking out because I must speak french. So today I saw him coming towards me and of course he says "Bonjour Penelope!!" and I totally am in shock. BUT WHY? I took 3 YEARS OF FRENCH. And all I say is a very simple and shy...hi. Gaaaa. I feel so lame. I couldnt even say a simple SALUT..or gaaa..I am unhappi with my not well of french speaking. Goes to show how pro I am. I can speak Frenglish..woo

I will not play at Tug O' war I'd rather play at Hug O' war Where everyone hugs instead of tugs, Where everyone giggles and rolls on the rug,Where everyone kisses and everyone grins,And everyone cuddles, And everyone wins.Can I just say.

That is my very favorite poem. EVER. I love Shel Silverstein.

So. Talmage asked me to prom. YES. I SO did not see that coming. Yay. Well looks like Sarah got asked by a sophomore as well, so this should be a party..REALLY. :) I am just loving the idea of guys making all the plans and paying..best part. And I really don't want to wear a dress. Serious. Oh well. I should probably answer him one of these days. Maybe.

Sooo..today Avery wrote to tell he is FINALLY getting transferred!! He will be in the town of St. Stephen, known as The Chocolate Town, in New Brunswick. And, GET THIS. He is District Leader! Woohoo I am so proud of him and love and miss him so much, but I really do know he is in the best place he can be in his life right now. http://www.town.ststephen.nb.ca/

I wish I were more inspiring. I find so many people around me doing that to me though. I like you by the way. You impact my life greatly. One day I wish to do the same. To leave a mark and help someone else who needs it. By words, and probably more as well.

Ummm..Bakka comes on Thursday. Best Ever. I love him. He is my favorite Inspiration.

Van Back.

Hit garbage cans.

Tangled is my favorite.

Boys. Who Knew? They are SOME creatures. And have distince Smells. NIIIICE. Why freak out saying there arent enough fish in the tri-ocean. I just like the little ponds I find. They kinda the best actually. And guy friends are way fun. But. College will be a good sea.

GO AHEAD, Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Get to know some one random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a jerk what you thin k. Laugh until your stomach hurts. Live life. Regret nothing.

Sooo..Did you know:

*Chicken soup really makes you feel better

*Kissing is healthy*Bananas are good for cramps

*Its true. Guys do insult you, when they like you.

*89% of guys want the girl to make the first move.

*Girls love it when guys hug them from behind the waist.

*Chocolate makes you feel better.

*Girls love it when guys give them their jacket or hoodie to wear.

*Guys think it's cute when you mess up...

Yep..today was great. But I have not much to say. You are awesome. I wish for you, if you have not, to watch the short video, Validation. Find it on YouTube. It makes me SO happi.

That, Is That.