now..

I havent written in a while. I think it was best, because i would start writting but then erased it. I would have regretted letting the world know certain things. But basically i have been thinking a lot about time. And how there isn't a lot. I mean, i nanny kids, so the whole time, i try to have fun, but like any job we have we are subconciously thinking "How much time left?". Maybe i am the only one, highly doubt it. But i can't believe i will be a senior. One year til freedom. And i am always talking about how i look forward to leaving and getting out of here. But i decided i really need to use my time. And use it wisely. This summer is already almost over. Just flying by. And half of my friends are headed to college. So, alothough i am dead by the end of my days, i have been trying to fit as much into my schedule. Some people don't like busy, but i love it. I feel like when i am sitting doing nothing, that i am just wasting a way. So i am always on the go. And loving it. I want to spend as much time with all the different people leaving at the end of the summer, while also having the summer adventures with the ladies. I think it is just important to not hope for the best for tomorrow. Think about now, because now is what matters most.

But with being a senior this year, there is so much to think about, college, work, and whatever comes next. Everybody is asking me what i want to do, and what my plans are. Maybe i just say "I plan ongoing to BYU-I", as my "i dont know yet". Yes i do want to go there, yet there are still so many options of which i dont want to think about til time. I just want to live it up now. I love seeing old friends and i am gong to arizona to visit friends and family for two weeks, and then hopefully try to make it up to canada for a week to see the fam.

I went to church with Travis today. I have never attended Bethel before, let alone, any church outside of my own. It was definitely a different experience. Yeah i felt welcome, and it was nice, just not what i am used to. The sermon was pretty nice as well, talking about how the rich rule over the poor, and how life will always be this way. And about what we can give to the Lord, when he already owns everything in the world. We can give service, and give ourselves to those who have less than we. God has blessed us with the riches we have, whether they are spiritual gifts or physical gifts, and he has asked us to share them with those around us. Our love and service to others, is what we can give to the Lord.

Other than crazy life in general i have just been watching my babies. I have one more very long week ahead of me and then a break. Also last thursday marked Avery's one year day. So, one more year left. I have a feeling it will be mighty quick for sure. I connected with one of his companions who just got home, and Avery became really close with him, and was sad when he left. But i will definitly be keeping in touch with him. And hopefully start writing some more.

Well..looks like i have 9 hour weeks every day this week. I think its good though. I have a fun filled baby day all day, and then chill time at night. Yesterday with the little ladies we saw deer by the pool. Crazy right? Also they are my little "Country Girls". We blasted country music while dancing and painting pictures. And they sang along. Cutest moment of my life. Gosh i love them. I love being mom. Its crazy, i know. Just call me crazy. But besides the actual nannying part. I bike almost every day as well. It is a great ride and i love riding by the river. I usually take different routes and look at all the beautiful houses. It is SO fun.

I guess that is it. It is too early. And i would start too much ambiguity.

Baby time..